So, Thanksgiving day will be here in four days, not sure how ready I am! Seems as though the holidays have a different meaning to me now. I've always loved the holiday seasons but since my divorce, the meaning has changed for me. It's not about eating all the food and getting all the gifts but about being around the people you love! The past five years have been pretty tough for me and Trev, the way our life and our holidays are now, are not the way it use to be! Now Trev feels like sometimes he has to split his time between family and I'm pretty sure he hates it, I hate it for him! Last year was one of the best Thanksgivings I had had in many years, I was able to spend it with my BFF and his family, this year its different my BFF isn't in my life any more. This year is pretty much the first year that I haven't had that special someone in my life around during the holidays, now don't anyone feel sorry for me, I'll be fine!! But it has really made me think how life can change in an instance, the life you may think you will have may not be the life God wants you to have! I am thankful for my life, even though sometimes I'm all, God, why?, I know that He has my best interest at heart and He will never leave me! I have to depend on Him to get me through everything, even the holiday season! I'll tell you one thing, I have the best family, friends and church that a girl could ask for. I know I'll not be alone at all and that makes me very happy!! Sometimes just thinking back about 7 years ago, I would never in a million years thought my life would be where it is now, that I would be 41 years old and single, ugh, but again, I know God has my plan all laid out and I have to just be patience and wait for His time! In the mean time, I am becoming closer to God and that feels awesome! I am really learning to have faith, something that sometimes I struggle with, but I'm really working on that part of my life. Reading any book I can find on the subject!
So, in closing, this Thanksgiving take a minute to look around when you are with your family, be thankful that you have people around you that love you and will stand by you no matter what you do!!
Love
Steph :o)
God proves to be good to the man who passionately waits, to the woman who diligently seeks. Lamentations 3:25
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